So I haven't done much on here in forever. I allot that to my lack of inspiration for the last couple months. Hopefully I can get my new poem up that I wrote a couple weeks ago but I think it still needs work so who knows on that one.

I've been listening to a lot of Sea Change lately. Makes me wonder if I'm depressed. I don't feel depressed. I know I miss people like my family and I miss warm days in the sun. I think the end of that stuff is going to be rectified soon though. The perks to California I guess.

Most of all I miss the time I had in summer after my senior year. I want to feel everything about that again, especially with the person I did it with. Am I still feeling something? Yeah. Do I care if anyone knows that? I don't think so.

I feel I've bit my tongue on that question for far too long. It's time I let that wound heal and open my mouth to ask. Wish me luck because I think I'll need it.

For the first time in a decade, I feel at ease.

I also found out recently that I can let go, at least for the time being.




I finally don't hurt anymore and it's almost scary.......I guess I got used to it years back.

To one, I'll always love you and you know that. It's time for me to move on, though. Someday we could rekindle, but until then I'm content with what I've got with you.

The other won't see this, but I'm glad we could heal that wound. We can't change the past and why would we? We wouldn't be the people we are today if we could. I'm glad we could find closure.

Now I go on to mack on the beauty that is lady freedom. The future looks bright for me and I hope I can see you all in it's radiance.

(P.S.~ there's a new poem I got up, you should check it........More will be up when I do some editing.)

make you really appreciate people around you. It tells you that someone really cares that you're around.

Mybe some new works later. If anything it'll get on here in a week or two but no one really knows.

That's what my name means to whoever doesn't know spanish. If you know anything about blue roses, you should know they don't exist in nature. They are an anomaly because they cannot create blue color pigment, which makes them only existent in our minds.

I chose this name because of it's color; blue is representative of fragility. Also, a blue rose is representative of uniqueness as well as alienation. It's represented in my mind clearly as a person's inner child or a person's creativity or muse.

In essence, everyone has a blue rose growing in their hearts (and if they say otherwise, they've just learned how to hide it away).

Anyways, enough about that. I got some pictures up today so you guys should probably check them out.........a comment would be nice too.